and now i surrender myself to family. let them choose what is right and what is wrong for me.
time and time again i have proved myself incapable of making any correct judgements.
time and time again i have lost faith in myself.
it is time to retire from decision making.
it is time for me to stop thinking about myself. i make the wrong choices anyway.
maybe it is because i have lost all confidence in myself.
but it is a lesson well learnt. i do not know how to judge people. i do not know how to tell the genuine from the insincere.
i am a gullible fool.
now whatever happens to me is solely in mom's hands.
i have given up on myself.